Sigh...

     Sad moment. I'm a bit down.
     This is something my dad says: Anger makes you do things you don't know you're gonna do until you've done them. 
     You know those times when someone says something that just infuriates you, and you lash back, and immediately regret it, but you said it, and you can't take it back? See, that's me right now.
Here's a thought: Anger is a secondary emotion. It always blooms from something else; hurt, grief, embarrassment. So what does my anger bloom from? Right now: pride. I would tell myself I'm simply upset about things people have said about my loves and my beliefs, but truly, I want to be noticed and seen for someone strong in her knowledge of God and His goodness; someone who helps people there. I do love God. I do love people. But my motives need to change.
     I need to look at this kind of situation and think: How am I meant to respond? Does Heavenly Father want me to retaliate, and if so, how? What does He want me to say?
     Easier said than done... but in all my cheesiness: I'll do it. I can do hard things.