Tough

I'm feeling like a pessimist today; I guess I should say something optimistic. I feel like writing something angry and complainful, (not a word,) like the fact that one of my friends thinks I'm a complete jerk and another completely won't talk to me, and yet another doesn't talk to me simply because he just doesn't anymore. I'm feeling the loss of multiple friendships and it's tearing at my soul and shattering me to peices. So tonight when I say my prayers, I suppose I'll thank God for the many learning experiences I've had this past little while and the wonderful people I've had the privledge of knowing, even if I don't know them anymore or they're slipping from my grasp. I'll ask Him to bless them in their endeavors and ask if He can help me let them know that I love them and I'll be there if ever they come calling... And then I suppose I'll sit with my thoughts, and then I'll go to bed. And then maybe I'll dream about my uncles helping me find someone's house, like I did last night, or of a giant snake eating people, like I did a while ago. And I'll have to move on. Sad, but if you don't know how to be sad, how can you know what it's like to be happy?
     "Love is never wasted, for its value does not rest in reciprocity." Neil A. Maxwell (a very wise man)